"Lost in your search"

It’s all about YOU
Don’t say you’re not important,
It simply isn’t true,
The fact that you were born,
Is proof, God has a plan for you.
The path may seem unclear right now,
But one day you will see,
That all that came before,
Was truly meant to be,
God wrote the book that is Life,
That’s all you need to know.
Each day that you are living,
Was written long ago.
God only writes best sellers,
So be proud of who you are,
Your character is important,
In this book, you are the ‘Star’.

5 THINGS...DONT DARE TO MISS ABT 'ME'

There's no denying it- this blog is pretty much dead. Partly, because there really haven't been any 'continuous' posts for quite sometime... just things I managed to publish inspite (and as a result) of a major Kreative-Truth Block. And to a certain extent because of the dwindling readership. I'm sure the reason's my recurring bouts of (in)sanity that lead me to proclaim that I'll be shutting down the blog forever, thus, driving away whatever exiguous number of readers it had(well in reality, i cant...coz blogging is mixing slowly in my blood!!). Yet, there are people who have made their presence felt and if the blog's alive the credit goes to them! Thank you!
One of the most consistent readers here are Anshul Sir n Alok Sir who recently awarded words of appreciation to my writing skills.. As the policy goes, "the award by default goes to anyone who drops a nice comment" LOLZZ.. That, technically, makes me a recipient of the award.. Genuine praise can be conveyed through mere words. Blogosphere encourages distinct talents. No two bloggers can be compared then why distinguish? Everyone deserves an award! And so, I take it upon myself to forward this to every blogger who visits this page, comment or no comment! (Hey so who's more generous now? :P)
Now that we're done with the award policy crap, lets come to the point.Apart from appreciation, my friends have tagged me as well. Now, I'm supposed to write down 5 random things about myself. For anyone who knows me knows that I take pride in calling myself the epitome of randomness so no wonder I grabbed the opportunity as soon as I laid my eyes on it. :D

1) I have a habit of breaking into a rendition of humu-humu-nuku-nuku-apua'a by Ashley Tisdale just to bug people around me. :D


2) I get easily bored. Things, places, people, food... you name it, it bores me. I need to keep up the excitement factor somehow... meet new people, visit new places, etc.But that isn't exactly possible when you're an undergrad...err...engineer..Wait! A broke future engineer! Oh no! A broke would be engineer whose life revolves around hostel and college and politics and crappy food in mess. (and don't tell me that I have so much opportunity to at least meet new people if not anything else. Trust me, I've tried.)



3) I carry two phones. One, for the sole purpose of RECEIVING calls from home...BSNL..every 'would be engineer's PAPA' would love...20p calling... [:P], the other to make calls and important n unimportant n nuisance messaging to my friends in NCR. One of them has got a QWERTY. The funny thing is that the one that has the QWERTY isn't the one I use for messaging :P




4) I'm pretty good at shutting people out of my life. No, not literally but more like shutting my mind to them. Once they've lost their rapport with me, once I've lost all respect for them there's just no way they can gain it back. Nope. Never. I'm darned good at growing indifferent to things. I can force myself to do it. (There's one girl Kanika Tripathi in EEE who got a taste of it recently when i PUNCHED her hard accompanied with a 'freelance kick'WITH REEBOK SHOES in front of 'BOYS HOSTEL' and I'm sure she was scared enough to not make me do it in future *evil laugh*!! AND DONT MISS THE BEST PART...SHE WAS WITH HER BF...N HE WAS HELPLESS...)



(It's been 10 minutes and I just can't think of a 5th thing. I've been repeatedly checking my phone for a call that'll never come. Life sucks!)


5) Oh yes! YES YES YES! Life sucks! "Life Sucks!"... I say that at least187 times a day. It's my motto. Gee!


So there! I'm done with my tag. Although now I can think of another 50 random things. It's weird. You can never remember anything when you want to write about it but once you drop the idea of writing it all comes flooding your mind like anything. And before I ramble on and into another tag, I'll take leave so as not to lose the ikka-dukka readers this blog knows. Ciao!

Rule of LIFE....'THIS TOO SHALL PASS'

"When I was a kid, the worst of all days was the last day of summer vacation, and we were in the school yard playing baseball, and the sun was down and it was getting dark. But I did not want it to get dark. I did not want the game to end. It was too good, too much fun. I wanted it to stay light forever, so we could keep playing forever, so the game would go on and on. That's how I feel now. Come on, come on. Let's play one more inning. One more time at bat. One more pitch. Just one. Stick around, guys. We can't break up this team. It's too much fun.

But the sun always went down. And now it's almost dark again."

- Mike Royko

Changes in life. Good changes. Bad changes. Pleasant changes. Unexpected changes. Looking-forward-to changes. Please-make-it-go-away changes. It-happens-for-a-good-reason changes.

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That's life's story. Change. Mine is going to change. For good. I am happy. I am packing away a new life, a new me, new joy and fresh hopes in a cute lil suitcase for a new journey. But am unhappy about what is getting left behind - what can no longer fit in the brand new suitcase. Roommates who became friends, confidantes. Friends who became what fills up an empty evening. The comfort of knowing a city - knowing the 'Parathe wali' shop open even on a Sunday, the correct auto fare from point A to B, the perfect shop to bargain at for the perfect dress. The cup of coffee offered when I am sick. The hug given, unasked for, when needed the most. The hand which slips inside my palm when am scared. The surprise gifts. The happy faces. The sunshine-filled laughter. The inside-jokes. The "I know exactly how you are feeling" look.

Somehow, its difficult to focus on the gain right now. Although there have been lot of tough time here, but still i'm gonna miss these days. Of course, not the college, but my hostel,,,my frnzz. Know what, still i havent decided what to do further...MBA, M.Tech..Job...i dunno...m blank (I'm gud at being blank..sheesh!! i'm too bad at decision making) I have this strict 'Let it GO' policy in my life...example- "ohk..let it happen..we'll see...". But i keep on tugging myself...hey shrueti..c'mon..its abt ur lyf..career...BUT, IN VAIN...coz i dnt hv the least idea wht will happen.

I suppose i need a big breakthrough to realize what i am upto...

"..wait for me...as im on my way from a thousand light years to reach u..wait for me...cox my evrythn depends on u"

Couldn't you hear me when I called your name?

The words were stained on my lips.

I waited for you, but you didn't came. ....

And when you did - it was too late.

Now I'll wait for you here, even if I have to wait forever.

P.S. I LOVE YOU....THE UNANSWERED QUESTION

Today i saw 'P.S. I LOVE YOU'... n i was left unanswered with a question..'Can i ever live as Holly lived..' coz if i would love a person like that, i'd be so estranged with him...love..emotions.. that i wouldn't be able to live life after he has gone. I can't even imagine to live without him, leave alone the matter to uphold oneself. Holly did showed a true openess for the journey of her life. The last quote by Holly made me cry like hell...that was "Dear Gerry, you said you wanted me to fall in love again, and maybe one day I will. But there are all kinds of love out there. This is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive.I don't know how you did it, but you brought me back from the dead. I'll write to you again soon. P.S... Guess what? "

And the most outstanding one was by Gerry..."Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you "

Holly couldn’t live without her husband
Gerry, until the day she had to. They were
the kind of young couple who could finish each other’s sentences. When Gerry succumbs to a terminal illness and dies, 30-year-old Holly is set adrift, unable to pick up the pieces. But with the help of a series of letters her husband left her before he died and a little nudging from an eccentric assortment of family and friends, she learns to laugh, overcome her fears, and discover a world she never knew existed.
The kind of enchanting novel with cross-generational appeal that comes along once in a great while, PS, I Love You is a captivating love letter to the world!

Twilight - Stephenie Meyer.....i read recently

The first in this pleasantly surprising vampire series, Twilight is the story of Bella, an ordinary girl who moves to the seemingly dreary town of Forks in Washington State to live with her father. At high school, Bella finds herself to be quite the popular new girl, especially with some of the male students in her classes. But it is when she meets the Cullens that everything changes. Mysterious, reclusive and astonishing beautiful, the five Cullen students intrigue Bella, and she finds herself captivated by Edward and his strong reaction to her presence. When Edward impossibly saves Bella's life during an accident, she is determined to uncover the secret he is hiding from everyone. But she could not imagine how dark it is, and what she is letting herself in for.

I must admit that I was not expecting much from this series, having never shown much interest in any type of vampire fiction. But after all the fabulous reviews I have read on blogs and after watching the film trailer, I knew I'd have to read it soon. The fact that I went to the library and borrowed the second in the series before I'd even read the first shows how much I enjoyed it!

Twilight is not your typical Romeo and Juliet story, but is intense and tragic all the same. Meyer's description of vampires is interesting, almost scientific, with their eyes changing colour with hunger, and their bite is like a poison. Less glamourous perhaps, but a great deal more fitting in a story like this. I am fascinated by the Cullens and their individual pasts, especially Carlisle, and what would make him create such a family for himself, especially after what his life had been like. Some of the Cullens' stories are revealed slowly over the course of this book, and others in later parts of the series, but all with enough differences and enough heart to feel painfully real. Edward is suitably intense and beautiful, and it is hard to imagine anyone playing him in a film. As Bella herself often thinks, it isn't obvious why he would be so passionate about her, but that too in part is revealed over time. Twilight and its characters are very seductive but with enough doubt, mystery and action to keep anyone gripped. Its a good thing there are three more books after this one!

Am i so stupid or the world out there is?

Its my 4th n last year in college n still the story is same... Jealousy, back biting, shrewdness, subtle n sagacious ppl ..looking for one chance to be crafty over the other...

God...how i survived here, was better part of my luck...Though with ultimate rough time, i learned those experienced, that i wd'nt have if i wasnt here. i learned what the world actually is. Where the male dominating society doesnt agree to let the women take over ... even though if she is far better than him. and i completely agree that being a girl in such society is really a bane...a curse.

I stood up for what was right, i stood for justice, and what i got...? i got days full of tensed atmosphere, stressed life, admontary messages...

and now when the year is ending...another story...another irritated days...

i wonder why cant ppl live their own lyf? and why the world is so mean?...